Love Jinx

It happens everytime.
I know.

Whenever there is any love chance swinging pass, before it could blossom, it will be gone before it even got started.
That is how jinx my love luck can get.

How could I even be angry about it when I could not put my finger on 'how did THAT happen!?'.
There is no way in dealing with it.
So since I could not overcome it, I have to live with it.

Whenever it jinxed me, I nursed my emotions.
It just unfair to set my emotions dancing in dreams and next minute just tumbled down to nightmares.
Yes, suddenly all the romantic things that had happened seems just like an illusion.

Pouring out to friends sounds like a routine which I dread now.
Constant failures must be a cupid's joke or else, it must be my problem.
I do wish someone could tell me ' whats my problem'.
I can handle problems but I cannot deal with bad luck.

I guess I am getting better at handling disappointment now.
Countless similar cases are good at numbing the feelings.
A deep breathe and some tears are good enough to set me prepared for a fresh start.

I know I am still jinxed.

That does not stop me from putting my hopes in love, it only made me stronger to challenge it.
Therefore I need to constantly SMILE, Happier and Brighter.

My smile had always been my biggest asset.
It does not charms the Cupid but I hope one day, it can attract a man strong enough to break this curse.

Good luck, ries...